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  1. All I Have

From the album Vanarchy

Lyrics

[Sample of people fighting]


When I was a little kid, my parents would always fight // Yelling loud, smashing shit, well into the night // Cutting up wedding pictures and pitching glass plates // In regards to how we felt they put their kids in last place // We hated it but like optimists we invented some games // Sneak up on them, trying to make them laugh, like we could change // The way they felt and stop the fight // Maybe turn the wrong to write // It was too much turbulence for children longing for a calmer flight // Momma might divorce dad, threw my hat, said fuck that // In middle school it sucks to be crushed where you're stuck at // To escape their fighting, I would hide and turn the lights off // Because once I put those headphones on from my blue walkman, I'm lost // In bliss. All the pain would cease to exist // Endorphins of peace would get released and I would drift // Since I couldn't hear them yelling? I no longer felt sad // See even at the age of ten it felt like music was all I had

Bought a camper van for tours, I sleep in the back, I quit my job to rap // And when the clouds are ominous and black and I feel like I'm about to crack it's how I keep my life in tact // Feels like this is all that I have

Freshman year, life was wobbly like an unfinished structure // The week my mom went to rehab my appendix ruptured // Then the girl I was in love with hooked up with a close friend // It's like everything I knew in life came to a ghostly end // I'll never forget it man, those were the darkest times // Absolute pain was just plaguing my heart and mind // Laid up in the hospital like what the fuck is going on // They prescribed me all these pills, I had no one, my hope was gone // And so to cope? I'd load the bong // Skipping school I played Oblivion the whole month long // I felt stuck. It's like my life was brown grass // One day instead of makeup work I chose the sounds of Outkast // On this particular occasion? I was incredibly high // When they said, "Git up, Git Out, and Git Something?" I straight up cried // Then and there, I made the decision to move to dad's // This music truly guides me, I'm glad it's influenced me like it has //

Bought a camper van for tours, I sleep in the back, I quit my job to rap // And when the clouds are ominous and black and I feel like I'm about to crack it's how I keep my life in tact // Feels like this is all that I have

So ask my dad about when he picked me up at midnight // Because my mom was barred out and we had gotten into a big fight // What she said in the driveway was sick, almost demonic // We drove away in silence shocked, til' I put on a song that // Sublimated the suffering. For a moment, we were a Sabbath song // The mystical riffs lifted us above the wrath of mom // til' it was in the past and gone and that's just what I do // When shit hits the fan, it's music that gets me through // but Hip Hop is an umbrella term. At least it is to me // It encompasses every aspect of the culture that there can be // Which is everything from knowing music's history // To expressing yourself visually, sonically, and physically // To running a business independently, living efficiently, and saying what you feel, all while improving mentally // So by this is all I have? I mean creating as a whole // Myself and Rap? are a double helix and that's just out of my control.

Bought a camper van for tours, I sleep in the back, I quit my job to rap // And when the clouds are ominous and black and I feel like I'm about to crack it's how I keep my life in tact // Feels like this is all that I have