Always on Me

Wow, great work... you almost killed grandma // Stupid dipshits, sometimes I can't stand yall // How am I supposed to act? The camels back is broken // It snapped in a dramatic, traumatic family explosion // Now I'm trying to pick the pieces up, because that's what I've always done // It's up to me when things erupt, at home I was the oldest one // Feels if I don't focus on self improvement then no one will // Now I have no chill and every flow is overkill // Everytime you broke a pill, my psyche shattered further // If I fold this decomposes so I wisely had to nurture // Our symbiosis then bring it back to stability // To always be who holds us is bogus my sadness visibly // Distracts endlessly from efficiently making art // I have a brilliancy within me til' you break my heart // I'm grateful for my family's love and everything they've done for me // but last month was dumb, yall really fuckin fucked with me //

Sucks it's always on me to sweep the messes up // I love you but please you need to step it up // It's tough enough to succeed without this extra stuff so // Either you grow, or I need to go //

I'm not the bread winner. I don't support us that way // More family sage restore order with what I have to say // And that's okay. It's a role that I've been glad to play // Done the shit since ninth grade, happy with no hazard pay // The diplomat. Pulling wisdom from a magician hat // My linguistic intuition fixes cataclysms at // A rate of profound efficiency it just gets to me // This gift I give expends extensive mental energy // That withers my inner musician, feel like Palpatine // Blasted so much magic that I'm old as fuck and rather mean // I'm 27 but my minds 143 // Growing up I had few freinds who struggled more than me // It was embarassing like dude can I come over // My folks are breaking shit again I don't think that they're sober // Eating dinner at the homies house feeling ashamed // When my sister calls screaming "can you come home?" and I'm like dang